7:05 PMMonday, September 22, 2008
Heyya peoples.
im not feeling very hyper/happy..
i dont have the feeling anymore! ):
i have to write this now cause my jie go out.
&i feel tt i will cry aft writing this post..
For me; its a very sad thing to bear to write it all down(achivement of course)
Hey girl, i miss you alot...
why arent you online in MSN nowadays? is it just me or you avoiding me.
i miss the feeling talking to you? you always will comfort me but now you're gone.
i feel so lonely.. i feel like crying in class nowadays & course i cant!
i dont want people to care for me yet i dont a least bit for them.
i feel tht im losing everyone cause of my temper ):
its all because of you & yet i feel i cant blame it all on you!
maybe its good but of course everything contain bad.
im crying alrdy but i just cant stop ): NOBODY CARES ANYMORE.
We enjoyed a blissful 1year tgt but everything had to end so quickly...
bacsue you think tt your exams are failing, you quitted games ):
&& thats when i tried my best to smile. not to let anyone know i have any problems
but i just cant stand it when a period i cried every EVERY night.
i cry my hearts out/content & i give a BIGGG smile to school.
i dont want all this to happen but its all fated?
im trying my FXCKING best to maintain everything i can change.
my studies, attitude towards everything.
im even giving in to my SISTER. i hate this life and i guess i have to change it!
well, weiting told me smth tt i felt very good to me?
if you think your losng everything, then you gt to earn it back!
you got to change everything!
& now im trying to change it and i hope everything will go bck to normal..
without you in my mind? all i think is how you look likes?
i cant concentrate in class.. im NOT EVEN LISTENING NOW.
i feel tt im nt apart of THEM?
i look like a pathetic bastard trying the fking nubest to be a "paikia" ?
im stupid. im nt smart neither bad? i guess i rather change eveything.
i will study from now onwards.
although i know im going to NA but i guess i can at least strt a new leaf?
i have to suffer with the idoits. the paikias' .
i guess its all meant to be. im nt smart and im trying to be one?
i guess here and there. it all shows im such a fxcking noob.
i fxcking know tt YOU reading this will treat me as a friend.
cause i treat you as one and i hope you'll appreciate it..
Chunyin&Weiting.
thnks alot. i really SMILE when im with you guys.
im now crying for joys tt i rmb smiling with you guy(s)
chunyin helped me today and i really wish i can thanks him LOTS! :D
Weiting, i really love you as a chatting partner.
one tt i can face/talk to. one tt makes me free from my "prison"
really love you much as a friend.
THANKS *imaginary huggie*
this i know. but now; YOU KNOW!
so just keep quiet & nt let anyone else know kk? :D
byeee.
