fading faith

8:11 PMWednesday, March 26, 2008

hello ppls.
i just found out today tht i'm nt just a JINX, i'm a LEFT-OUT BOY too.
ppls dont care about me.
i dunno have i make the right choice of friends.
i dunno have i went to the wrong path.
i dunno when i will be dead.
i dunno. i dunno alot. I DUNNO ALOT OF THINGS !!
I WAN TO NOE ALL THE THINGS I'HV DONE !!
i hate myself. why are ppl so good to me but i neglect their care.
I HATE MYSELF. ppl ignore, the mre i care for them.
I HATE MYSELF. ppl care for me, the mre i neglect them.
I DUNNO IF I SHOULD OR SHOULD NT CARE.
I WAN TO NOE EVERYTHING.
even if i have to pay the price of my life. I WAN TO NOE !
if there is 1day tht i can live for 1 day of everything and die,
I DO IT. I WAN TO NOE EVERYTHING SO THT I CAN CORRECT MYSELF.
nobody cares for me. nobody ciorrect me. NO BODY LIKE ME.
i feel so hopeless. ANYONE CAN CARE FOR ME PLS ?!
I CANNT TAHAN ANYMORE. I DONT WAN TO SUFFER IN THIS WORLD.
EVERYONE HATES ME AND I HATE THOSE WHO LOVE ME.
I'M SO USELESS.
SO HOPELESS.

6:07 PMSaturday, March 22, 2008

hello.
its been 1 WEEK since i posted.
i'm really really sorry for nt tagging anyone&& posting.
*sighs*
i dont have mood since the strt of the year.
i always wanted to smile. but it didnt wrk.
i'm always a CURSE. a curse tht nvr give ppl smiles.
forget it. i dont expect anything cause..
I'M NTHING.
i dont look handsome.
i'm nt smart.
i have no talents.
SO WAD CAN I EXPECT FROM ANYONE.
suan le bahs. i'm suppose to be like dat. so sorry ]:

well. i tink i'm nt gonna post anything for MONDAY-THRUSDAY.
cause i dont rmb ANYTHING :X
FRIDAY. good friday.
i dont tink its a GOOD FRIDAY for my family for my father's family.
my auntie died ]:
WHY DID SHE DIE !?
although i dont really like her, she dont have to die rite ]:
its all becuase of her CANCER. why must she tio cancer.
if the world no cancer, she wont die
her son is only 7 YRS OLD !! :(
her son was asking me why her mummy gtg.
why must she leave him to go to heaven.
why so fast go heaven. i feel so...
HOPELESS tht i cant do anything ]:
anyway. went home and watch D.GRAYMAN.
nicenice [:
nt gonna talk bout the details [:
but if u wanna watch, its on ART CHANNEL every friday 11pm.

well.lets talk about today.
i was at home looking at korkor play at 1+ cause overslept cause of aunties funeral.
she die so we stayed there till late.
anyway. korkor gt play with my friends and he keep scolding them noobs -.-
FYI, he was playing DOTA !! *the only thing we can play*
so.. forgot about my cca and i tought i late for it so i didnt care loh :X
then roy call me then i go for cca. WASTE MY TYM SIA. but also can lahs :D
after cca, we went to 1 of the void deck and played with the tcher in charge's *githar*
i dunno how to spell == anyone can correct me ?
and was fun and was like figuring how to play CAI HONG on it.
it was hard cause ALOT TO TRAIL AND ERROR. my friend say gt more than 140+
so i was like.. WTH !? so i stopped -.-
well. took 38 with roy. reach home. call papa.
AND HERE BLOGGING !! and gtg le [:
mayb going to the auntie's funeral. so byebye :D
stop here !!//

11:03 PMSaturday, March 15, 2008

hell0 ppls [:
i decided to change to format of the words :D
well, as you can see..i'hv changed it to this format.
Hmm.i really dunno wad to write :X
today woke u at 7+ just for the concert which i'll say ltr.
anyway, woke up and played DOTA :X
&& ROY say vernasa and heidi say i accdicted to DOTA. lawlls
i tink so but i'll try to stop :X
anyway.. the concert is 7.30pm-9.30pm at *tanjong pagar CC*
i nt sure if spell correctly :X
so the senoirs of the PERCUSSIONS all met up.
we actually is go KOPITIAM outside school meet in the end,
END UP AT ZHENG HAO'S HOUSE. wth -.-
then ZH is like "WTH !? WHY SO MANY COME ?!"
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after tht we went to TM's kopitiam eat. LOL :P
the RICH ppls ate and i'm nt 1 of them -.-
1 ate porkchop and the other ate EXPENSICVE STUFFS.
let me tell you the prices :l
CHICKEN CHOP-$5.70
JAPANESE STUFFS- (main course.$ 6+)
(side dish. $4.50)
IT'S SO FKing expensive ?? -.-
i cant eat cause too expensive and i wanna save money :X
anyway, we shop shop loh. && WE SAW L's POSTER AT CENTURY !!
but we didnt buy cux we dont wanna carry t around and destroying it -.-
after tht went to TANJONG PAGAR mrt to meet conducor cux he fetch us to the CC.
well. carry the instument and blablabla.
uncle&jiejie went to see me perform :D
nt very scared. so is OKOK lahs :P
we perform the first 4 song le then wait till 9+ to perform another 4 songs.
but i only play like 3 songs ==
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we waited for like 1hr+ to play the 2nd half ..
then finish le just carry bck to "base."
then we go loh.
at first is meet my uncle at bugis de but in the end raina's father bought us home.
THANK YOU UNCLE :D
he's gd [: anyway, he alight me,roy&ZH to the simei mrt.
ZH follow roy but in the end he need take bus home. LOL *quite stupid* :x
anyway. chiong home and see my papa.
tought can play DOTA. =/
anyway. i read blog and here i am POSTING !! [:
papa is like wan me to sleep but i'm posting.
so he read newspaper to wait for me to sleep. he scared i play game.
which is DOTA but he dunno cux he dont read EL.
pls do nt say he stupid. i hate him but hes my father afterall :D
anyway, i'll stop here [:
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PLS TAG ME LEH.
DONT READ LE THE RUN OFF ]:
TAG BOARD IS SO CLOSE !!
PLS TAG !!
<<<<<<<<<<<<*tag board*

10:28 PMFriday, March 14, 2008

hello guys. sorry for the late posting :D

well.i have my reasons OK :l

well. i needa go to SINGAPORE POLY to practice the concert for my CCA.

nt bad nehs :x

well. its from 12noon-8pm.

but because the conductor need the percussion to help for another concert.

so we agree loh [:

we do untill 9+

then cux me and ZH's bag at school -.-

SO SUAY can.. =/

so SOMEBODY hlp us take then the conductor go her house to take our bags.

i hate her but thx anyways [:

well. by the time i reach home is like 10+

and here i'm blogging [:

i dont really have much to say though

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nw i'm wondering if i have friends.

the so called FRIENDS didnt even call me to seat wth them.

*sighs* always been left out ALL ALONE.

i tink heidi's the best to [:

but of course i'm nt her BF. *shes alrdy taken* :X

ZH is oso nt bad [: his changed alot.

bth in bad&good.

well. bad is tht he went PIERCING.

good is tht HES GOOD ! DUHH ?

well.i'll stop here [:

sorry yea ppls. HOPE-ING for taggs [:

*thx*

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6:23 PMThursday, March 13, 2008

well. its alrdy 6:30.

i'm bored so come bck anyhow post =/

parents still nt home !!

DANG IT. how sia..

hope they bck soon [:

i tink ltr will post :D

*listen to blog's song*

*talkinq to XUANHUI on MSN*

byebye [:

4:56 PM

hello.

i'm still nt happy ]:

always gonna be sad anyway.

i'll accept friends though! [:

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well. i dont tink i can rmb tuesday :x

so i tink i'll skip tht day!!

well...

[24 hrs have passed]

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YAY. i can strt on wednesday!!

hhm. went to CCA and blablabla.

[3hrs have passed]

its raining so cannt go escape. changed to CINEMA.

then stupid MOTHER FUCKING BITCH [racheal] dont let us go.

she's the chairman of the CCA.

then i need to wait till she talk finish.

*sighs*

lucky nt late for SHOW !!

anyways.

went to watch with uncle,jiejie& AMALINA.

Amalina is oso called [ezzan] and is jiejie's friend [:

shes a fine girl. better than jiejie -.-

anyway. we watched HORTON. its quite funny bt nt so gd.

i tink i'll give it a [6/10]

joejoe is SO EMO. but hes cute [:

after show went to eat PASTAMANIA.

i ate baked rice [:

i dunno iszit becuase i put tobasco then the food nt nice :x

after eating went shopping at 1st floor. [converse sales]

after that went to PLAZA SINGAPURA.

shopped again//

finish shopping is like alrdy 7+

so went home lohs. my uncle leave at bedok but he follow us to simei first [:

HE'S A GOOD UNCLE !! [hope he's my father]

then i tink thts all...

thusday over just like dat -.-

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nw its today.

wake up play DOTA 0.0

then play until jiejie come home.

let jiejie use [went to cook]

finish eating went to watch MIO TV.

watch 1hr come out fight with jiejie for comp -.-

SHE'S EVIL DE LOH. give her she dont gimme ]:

anyway...

I HAVENT BUY MY SYF SHOE !!

darn it. cant they just buy le then we return them !? [money]

*sighs*

i tink at night then buy bahs.

TMR NEED TO USE LE LEHS !!!

cause tmr need to wear full uniform.

gt the rehersal for a show. dunno if wanna call parents go anot.

i dont wan them go lehs. veri pai seh :x

i tink i ask my uncle go :x

wonder if he gt free :X

well. after this i go bck play DOTA bahhs.

nthing to do. DONT WAN JIEJIE USE (:

i'm evil de lohhs <33

anyway. i'll stop here [:

see if ltr go out gt any event. come bck post. [NO GARANTEE]
byebye ppls <33>

3:10 PMMonday, March 10, 2008

NI MEN HAO BU HAO [:

well...

so far nt much ppl care for me yet ]:

i wont be sad but i'll nt be happy either.

BUT, i'll try to stay happy [:

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paii seh so long didt post :x

i tink i'll strt from..FRIDAY !!

didt have much happened tht day. just have that stupid SUBJECT TALK.

thats the streaming talk [:

so lame lahhs !! waste my time. LOL -.-

after talk went home with papa since he came..

then i stayed at home play DOTA !!

l0lx. played for quite long [>'.'}> 1-3 hrs.

LOL. bo liao so go put the face :X

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nxt is SATURDAY !!

i dunn0 wadd happen tht day lehhs -.-\\

i tink i'll skipp that day then !! [:

lawlls. dont blame me. its my brain who did it [:

HAHAx.

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nxt up is SUNDAY !!

well lucky its holiday le so can go out [:

went out with uncle to watch WATER HORSE.

nt so bad [ 7/10] :x GOOD liao lehhs @.@

went to eat DELIFRANCE before the show strted.

i ate FISH&&chip. did i spell it correctly ? HECK CARE lahs :x

ITS FREAKING HELL NICE LAHS. but of course is..expensive

its $14++. lucky is uncle pay [:

went in cinema.

-BLABLABLA-

came out and went to eat MAC.

i ate mcSPICY [: cux i llike spicy mahhs. DUHH ?

I <33>

haha. then went home lohhs. wanted to watch korkor play DOTA.

HES A FREAKING HELL PRO LAHS//

but cux he wan wait papa&mama to sleep so didt wan to wait.

then go SLEEP !! lawlls.

-zzZ-

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woke up today at like 8+

i tought i late for CCA le but actually only 8+

Lawlls. went to bathe and ask papa bring me go to school lohs.

went to strt car [:

then papa wait for jiejie come down then i was like tinking...

I ALMOST LATE LE STILL COME HERE FOR WAD.

[was almost late and didt noe papa bring jiejie go sch]

[we live in HDB]

head for sch. went for CCA. strt lohhs, DUHH ? @.@

conductor teach new song but keep scolding wesley.

lucky i stand at the other end :D

but also get scolding. lawlls :x

took bus 38 with ROY&JOEY.

joey wan to meet her auntie at EASTPOINT so follow her go lohhs.

we walk walk walk then saw LJS.

then JOEY ask if we wanna eat-

ROY keep saying that her to treat. LOL :X so funny that tym.

OF COURSE she [joey] didnt treat. cux she no $$

then we went shoppinq -.-

see KFC. went in. ROY ask JOEY treat again.

in the end came out again -.- WTH !?

was so pai seh lahhs.

then went to BAKERY POINT buy tuna roll [:

but drpped 1 of them @.@

ROY say i have to pay for price of 2. LAWLS. so scared :x

auntie ask me must say wad then i blur blur dunn0 -.-

ROY shout at me say "SAY SORRY LAH!!".

then i repeat lohhs -.- so pai seh :x

lawlls. of course he was in a kind manner.

LAWLLS. then we bid farewell and walked home.

reach home and played DOTA nd here i am BLOGGING [:

i tink thats enough for 1day or should i say..4days.

ROFL-

hao bahs. stop here. Cya all !! [:

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tagged replyed [:

thx for the TAGS x33

9:22 PMThursday, March 6, 2008

hell0s everyone [:

didnt really have the mo0d.

i been havinq bad days,

had to CRY to push down the suffering]:

didnt want to do this.

nobody understands how much i'hv suffered.

NOBODY cares for me.

nt even my parents ]:

i'm always there for myself .

hope someone cares/concerns for me.

i may look happy smily. but deep inside, I'M NOT-

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east view idol. [part2]

its the grp *catagory* and its nt very good :x

1 of the group sang CAI HONG by JAY CHOU.

and guess wad..

i cried cause its too touchinq.

i'hv put all my saddness into that song.

always rmb the bad things when i hear that song.

though i hear that song every nite...

i'm putting all my bad doings of the day into that song.

i cannot say anymore from here as its confidential :D

and tmr is FRIDAY !!

gonna have CCA and the stupid STREAMING TALK.

papas gonna go thhere but i hoped for uncle. LAWLLS !! :p

dont like my father. [grudge with him]

we "stick wrong door deity" tats wad ppl say in chinese.

meaning, WE HATE EACH OTHER LIKE HELL :x

hope correct meaning -.-

anyways. GONNA PLAY DOTA TMR !!

yeappys[:

well. gonna post tmr i hope :x

Cya all :D

8:02 PMWednesday, March 5, 2008

hell0s all :D

didt have the MOOD to post ytd...

made some0ne anqry :[

she didnt f0rgive me...pls forgive me ]:

was all a sadd thinq.

i am always wonderinq if i'm a JINX ]:

where-ever i'm at, bad luck happens.

pls forgive me for all i'hv done.

nthinq is wrking for me.

[cant have paragraph]

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well... nthinq happened much -.-

and shocked tat zhenghou&Junhao went for piercing

went to ROY's house before CCA.

went there to BIKE !! so fun [:

& i'hv learned to ride some0ne !!

SO SHOIK. [useful when i have a Girlfriend]

well. go for CCA then practice&practice.

FINISH at 6:30pm. -.-

talk for AWHILE then went home.

actually need to wait for chairman to talk to me.

[about the SYF shoe]

siianx -.-

came home to do ART then finish 1st part nia.

tmr then doinq 2nd part. LAWLLS !!

then here i'm blogging [:

wanted to try DOTA but papa at home...

CANT ]:

anyway.. i tink i'll stop here for all of u guys to read..

byes- Cyax..

[stayinq EMO-ed even after taggers say EMO sucks] -.-

WHO CARES !!

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tag rplys-

xuanhui: emo is rock de lohhs -.-

natalie: thx for the tag [:

lala[er-zi]:where got sia -.-

...................BYE-BYE................

7:27 PMMonday, March 3, 2008

hell0 all [:

2nd day postinq in blog.

well. the day was fine. did some stupid CIP -.-

arranqe the books so tat can send to myanmar & *estimo*

so paii sehh :l dunn0 how to spell the country. Its a new country in EARTH :p

its so poor tat we have to give them books [:

WE ARE KIND PPLS ok :x

another reason is to clear the old ones so can have new ones. LAWLS !!!

Btw, fought with Darren Toh -.-

THE CLASS HATE HIM DUDE.

anyways, do nt fear. its a small fight ==

Actually promised ROY & Wesley to go LAN with them de.

but dont really like LAN shops cux alot paii kias :/

so, Wesley hlp me say wednesday we go LAN.

If i dont go, Roy will cutt of Wesley's *TOOT*

so sorry brother -.-

Send weitinq jiejie to Bus-stop.

Emo-ed on the way. LAWL :x

she told me some secrets too [:

DFONT ASK ME ANYTHING. i'm nt goinq to tell.

well. EMO-ed to my bus-stop...

Saw yi tinq and her friend.

talked to them and was funny :x

MADE FUN OF ME TOO ><

took bus 38 home..

AND GUESS WAD...

i sleep [:

-.-\\

wake up at 6.30pm. i went to run lehhs.

RUNNING SUCKS DUDE.

but cux wan skinny and shuai so go run lohhs..

papa&mama say nt -tamtam- ehhs.

it basically means, I'M NT WET.

dont belive i go run iszit ><

bathe and now BLOGGING !!

lawlls lahhs. was cold ;rain-ing//

well. i shall stop here [:

nidda eat dinner.

Cya all [:

Good Night.

sweet dreams ?? o0

4:58 PMSunday, March 2, 2008

hell0 [:

i'm bck from WHITESAND.

went there to play PARA PARA with jiejie.

played l0ts of games !!

loved the drum.

&& I'M BETTER THEN JIEJIE IN PARA PARA.

and it was my first time -.-

we played the hand and legg para para.

i totally SUCK at the legg de.

i played the Drum cux i wish i can play tat instument.

but its too expensive tat i doubt my parents can afford ]:

intotal. we spend $10 at arcade.

LAWLLS !! [its jiejie's money]

i nt so creul so, i tell jiejie i treat her to FOODS //

in the end, JIEJIE spend some $$ on the sotong for me -.-

SO paii sehh lahhs -.-

i rarely go out -.-

tats why i say i wann CHANGE my life.

say NO to computer :x

well. cant hlp it tat i have to blogg :/

anyway. doubt tat i will blogg at nite.

cux i tink no activity like goinq out cux...

TODAYS SUNDAY !!

totally HATE sundays.

because the nxt day, U HAVE TO STUDY !!

which i hate -.-\

[uncle called]

-wanted to watch move.

-didt have any movie nice

-dont go watch movie

-SUAN LE BAHS

no more goinq out -.-

tats wad happened...

well. i'll stop here [:

post tmr. I TINK :x

Cya all :D

12:39 PM

hell0 everyone [:

I'm bck to blogging cause i dont have anything to do -.-

as you noe, MY BLOG IS PATHETIC :x

u wanna noe why ? [:

BECAUSE MY LIFE IS ALWAYS COMPUTER !!!

but nowadays papa didt wrk ]:

i tink i'll change my life to study mode. WILL TRY TO [:

lalala... i said TRY :x

nowadays oso go play blindmice if gt CCA durinq Wednesday && Friday.

i'm so sorry for the blogskin.

I'M A WEIRD AND IDOIT BOY WHO LIKES CUTE STUFFS.

dont blame me for the blogskin -.-

i noe its abit girly but I LIKE THE PICTURE !!

lalala.

today sunday so i cant talk much. LAWLLS

Cya all :D